All these people telling me I have to get a grip,
and I got to to learn to let shit go.
Well, which is it?
Can you blame me for ambivalence when what you want is contradictory?
I fight it and I'm spited, I give in and they're delighted.
I say it isn't ALL my fault, that there were other factors.
They tell me it's that's irrelevant.
That context isn't useful and that blaming isn't helpful.
Can't determine why I do it so it must be cause I'm selfish.
I clearly did it to myself, I made it up on purpose.
I'm a narcissist for having needs, a selfish brat who won't bow knee.
They want me to call myself weak, acting like I can't ask for help.
I did a thousand times and they just say to help yourself,
or try to disempower me and act like it's to help.
They just want to bottle it up.
Blame me for getting help, blame me for helping myself.
For getting my own bottle, and my own shelf.
Saying it's not anyone's fault but acting like it's mine.
They say the problem's in my mind, they say I can't mak